Control

Control by JJ Heller

I just heard this song yesterday for the first time. I never really knew what JJ Heller had sang, but I've heard the name. I was listening to the radio yesterday and she was a guest on the radio station, so I decided to look up these lyrics of the song she was singing (since I'm addicted to looking up lyrics now) and I really liked them a lot...

The cut is deep, but never deep enough for me
It doesn’t hurt enough to make me forget
One moment of relief is never long enough 
To keep the voices in my head from stealing my peace

Oh, control
It’s time, time to let you go

Perfection has a price, but I cannot afford to live that life
It always ends the same; a fight I never win

Chorus

I’m letting go of the illusion
I’m letting go of the confusion
I can’t carry it another step
I close my eyes and take a breath
I’m letting go …

There were scars before my scars
Love written on the hands that hung the stars
Hope living in the blood that was spilled for me




It's always really hard to not want to control your own life because we think that it's OUR life....but really, it's not our life; it's God's. God created us and brought us into this world. We are the clay and Jesus is the potter: "But Lord, You are our Father. We are like clay, and You are the potter; Your hands made us all." (Isaiah 64:8). It's so difficult to realize that God has a plan for each of our lives. He knows what is going to happen. Jeremiah 29:11 has always brought me through the tough times in my life because it reminds me that I don't have to worry about the future. God has a plan for all of us; a plan to prosper us and not to harm us; a plan to bring us hope and a future. All these trials we are going through now are only to prepare us for the future God has already planned. I feel like God has been trying to help me with knowing He has a plan for years now. Even though it's been a slow process, He's still not giving up on me. 


So start to say "I'm letting go" because God has a handle on everything. Francesca Battistelli also has a song about letting go...


This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace


The fear of the unknown 
Beyond my comfort zone


I'm letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe
So I'm letting go


Like she says, it is beyond our comfort zone to have faith in God and allow Him to take control. So right now, for me, I'm working on "letting go".....