"We also have joy with our troubles, because we know that these troubles produce patience. And patience produces character, and character produces hope. And this hope will never disappoint us, because God has poured out his love to fill our hearts" ~ Romans 5:3-5
Now, I've have always had a hard time with the word "patience". It's such a small word, but yet such a complex idea. Even when I was younger, I always liked having my way and having it now. I was the girl who would fight with her family over whether "Oglaina" was a name in Scattegories. If only I could go back to those days when that was the most tragic part of my day...losing a point in Scattegories! I'm finishing up my freshman year in college and I have never had so much stress in my life until this year. I worry about the littlest things and it feels as if nothing ever goes my way. I came upon this verse in Romans today and it applies with my life so much! I always feel like I have to have everything figured out all the time, when really I can just give all my cares and worries to God. It's so hard for me not to know what my future looks like or who I'm going to marry or what my major will be. I have been slowly realizing that I need to just give all my worries to God and trust that He has an amazing future for me...better than anything I can ever imagine.
I have had several troubles in my life the past couple years, whether it's losing a loved one or just the normal boy troubles and confusion. God has never left my side. I read a section in the book "Crazy Love" last semester and it said this: "Worry implies that we don't quite trust that God is big enough, powerful enough, or loving enough to take care of what's happening in our lives." When I read that, I knew it was talking straight to me. I've kept this quote on my desk everyday and look at it often. I am one of the biggest worriers EVER and this helps me a lot. God already knows my future, so why worry?! Worrying gets nothing accomplished and it stresses us out, so why do we all feel the need to keep worrying all the time?! It just sounds ridiculous if you think about it.
Over these next few weeks of the end of the semester, my goal will be to STOP WORRYING and let God handle everything. I'm going to let him handle my many boy problems, friend worries, school stress, and loneliness. We're all a broken people...but you know what, that's OKAY! No one is perfect. As my friend, Kris, says to me, "You're broken". It's okay to lose it sometimes. It's okay to show emotion. God is bigger than any of my problems, so he can handle it ;)
Well I feel like that blog was all over the place, but hey, that's okay ;)
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