So...I am constantly thinking about my future. It excites me really, but I find that I get stuck in the past a lot of times and end up making up fake situations that could "happen" (ya right) in the future. Now, I do this all the time! I was just doing this when I got home from hanging out with friends in Sully tonight. I wish I could just forget the past and move on to new things in life, but I find myself holding on really tightly to things that I want to happen, but probably won't. I think the reason why I hold onto things so much is because I'm secretly hoping that everything I want to happen will somehow magically work out. Why do I spend my time fantasizing about what could happen in the future if God already has it planned out? I ask myself a lot and I really don't have the answer. It's like I can't fully wrap my head around the fact that God has so much more of an awesome future for me than what I have thought up in my head.
Now, I always am thinking about what my future will look like. It usually includes these things:
- Living in the country
- Have an amazing husband who is a strong Christian
- Have a few kids
- Live the simple life
- Do fun things like four-wheel and just country-type stuff =)
- Be a stay-at-home mom
- Live in a small, close-knit community, like Sully
Now I think this sounds absolutely amazing. It's crazy how much living around the Sully area has affected me so much these past couple years. I used to want to leave home so badly for college and now that I'm here, I miss Sully so so SO much! I love how everyone knows everyone (besides the gossip lol). I love how safe I feel there and how everyone cares about everyone. I have such a strong community that supports me no matter what I do. I am so thankful that I was brought up going to the school that I went to. I can't imagine how I would be like if I went somewhere else.
But ya, as I said before, it's hard for me to picture such a more amazing future than the future I have planned out for myself. I think I know who I want to be married to and where I want to live, but God has the floor here, not me. Heck, He probably is going to blow me out of the water with the guy he chooses for me to marry =) And how very much EXCITED and CURIOUS I am for that day when I finally get to meet him!! Or who knows, maybe I already know him or have known him for awhile. Who knows...God has some pretty cool tricks up His sleeve, I bet ;) Just need to remember my favorite verse...Jeremiah 29:11.
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